2020.12.01.
Klethra (Alder)
Powers, powers of the trees
under divination
Birch, birch, birch
under divination
bring them a(?) novella of love
that strikes the heart strong
Stake of wild rowan
under divination
decipher the unsolved enigma
that has hidden its key far away
Alder, alder, alder
under divination
dispell every illness
from the mind prostrated by doubt
Willow, willow, willow
under divination
gain full confession
from the mouth stiff from death
Trees, trees, trees
divine the truth
Trees, trees, trees
decipher what I ask you
2018.06.24.
Ataraxia
You will forgive me
I was hanging out a bit longer than I had planned [1]
Without meaning to, my mind wandered
And I didn't realize / (And I forgot about my plans) [8]
Given how late I was already [2]
It is necessary to see how the ivy climbs
It will be necessary to prune it, to try to contain it
Before April
Oh, how much I want to be able to speak
At these times, the fear doesn't even let me breathe (nor speak)
To expand myself inside of you [3]
It's the only thing that can bring me back to life [4]
I don't want anything else
You make it so that I can sleep
So that I can imagine
You make it so that I can inhibit
my neuronal flow
You make time slow down
And (you make it so) everything stays blank / empty
and I don't think about anything, anything else
You see a light in me
that nobody else has seen before
You get to fulfill
my small wish
You fully enter my body / my being / my system (organismo)
Injecting me with ataraxia [5]
And now I feel nothing, nothing, nothing
nothing else
I have so little ability (capacity)
to maintain control in my life [6]
to vanquish this eternal carelessness
(to vanquish this) ineptitude / incompetence
Built a foundation of avoiding
the truth that used to break me (that dis-protected me)
and exposed my shadows
My lack of a stance or approach [7]
I miss being able to talk
At these times, the fear doesn't even let me breathe (nor speak)
To expand myself inside of you
It's the only thing that can bring me back to life
I don't want anything else
You make it so that I can sleep
So that I can imagine
You make it so that I can inhibit
my neuronal flow
You make time slow down
And (you make it so) everything stays blank / empty
and I don't think about anything, anything else
You see a light in me
that nobody else has seen before
You get to fulfill
my small wish
You fully enter my being
Injecting me with ataraxia
And now I feel nothing, nothing, nothing
nothing else
I have so little ability
to maintain control in my life
You make it so that I can sleep
So that I can imagine
You make it so that I can inhibit
my neuronal flow
You make time slow down
And (you make it so) everything stays blank / empty
and I don't think about anything, anything else
You see a light in me
that nobody else has seen before
You get to fulfill
my small wish
You fully enter my being
Injecting me with ataraxia
And now I feel nothing, nothing, nothing
nothing else