2020.10.01.
Falling
As soon as i lifted my pen to write the first line, I saw the dead end.After you left, I couldn't help but spiral into desperation, trying to save our promised haven.
The memory of the past I shall protect in my heart, sealing it with a spell.
I never thought I'd throw myself into fervent prayer for you
Reality is crushing.
In an intoxicated dream, I moved forwards, you moved away
Do you know you left nothing but emptiness?
Leaving me, abandoning me, all of a sudden, the storm picks up, the clouds close in
After we've lost the future we envisioned together
I only wish I could be comforted by you, your touch can fix it all
Again, I'm subjecting myself to you, out of habit,
And, when the morning comes, I'm still falling.
I've adored you, raged at you, hated you
I tried to let you go because everybody wants to be who they want to be
I forgive you, but not for your sake
I tempered my anger, but for my own self
Laying down my ball and chain was something I thought I could do
But as I ignored my festering wounds, I continue to laugh bitterly
All that was made, now shattered and strewn across the floor, is being built up again
If I meet you by chance, I will still smile at you
Don't be surprised that I've lost time
After all, I took to you too naively, like a child, looking for comfort
Don't be surprised that I've lost time
After all, I took to you too naively, like a child, looking for comfort
The streetlights that guided me had broken down, and I'm once again pulled back into the past
I want to rebuild things with you, but wherever I step, I hesitate
The world tilts, and I pull you back into the story
But by the end, my arms are still empty
The memory of the past I shall protect in my heart, sealing it with a spell.
I never thought I'd throw into fervent prayer for you
Reality is crushing.
In an intoxicated dream, I moved forwards, you moved away
Do you know you left nothing but emptiness?
Leaving me, abandoning me, all of a sudden, the storm picks up, the clouds close in
After we've lost the future we envisioned together
I only wish I could be comforted by you, your touch can fix it all
Again, I'm subjecting myself to you, out of habit,
And, when the morning comes, I'm still falling.
In an intoxicated dream, I moved forwards, you moved away
Do you know you left nothing but emptiness?
Leaving me, abandoning me, all of a sudden, the storm picks up, the clouds close in
After we've lost the future we envisioned together
I only wish I could be comforted by you, your touch can fix it all
Again, I'm subjecting myself to you, out of habit,
And, when the morning comes, I'm still falling.