2018.12.24.
To Nina.
When I cried, you cheered me upIt tickled when you licked my face
This time, I’ll be the one to protect you
I know where we’re going, I won’t leave you alone
The frog ball that you loved
The silver bowl I used to feed you treats
The leash which kept you from getting lost
I’ll bring them all with us so be a good doggy and wait for me
The secrets that I kept from the school nurse
You listened by my side and tilted your head in confusion
I have a lot of scars on my butt from the cigarette burns
And blue bruises on my stomach but I pretend it’s fine
The day someone laughed because I wore the same clothes as yesterday
The day someone put my apron in the toilet
The day I couldn’t speak well so I was lectured for a while
The day I was hated by the person who sits next to me
I hate my new dad, he hits me no matter what I do
Even my kind mom is starting to change
You were the only one trying to protect me
You bit dad so he carried you to the bath
I could hear you crying for help and the sound of dad’s “discipline”
But I couldn’t do anything, I was scared and shaking.
When I woke up in the morning and looked in the trash
Your lifeless body was in there. I couldn’t even tell you I’m sorry
The frog ball that you loved
The silver bowl I used to feed you treats
The leash which kept you from getting lost
I’ll bring them all with us so be a good doggy and wait for me