A keresés eredménye

Seize The Day

Seeing the Christmas lights tonight left me dewy-eyed
I couldn’t really relate to the thriving festivities
Should I deliberately avoid the silence? I fantasized about you pressing my doorbell
I’m curling up and shivering in my icy home
 
I forced a smile at the celebrations, but I just wanted to call it off
I barely got through the fun and games, and now I just wanna escape
Feigning calmness when toasting, cheering as we took a photo at the party
I had no choice but to feel happy for you amidst all the blessings you’ve received
 
It’s clear that my biggest fear is being cold-shouldered
Yet I still wished you a happy breakup
I’ll intentionally seek out new raisons d’être to replace the moments when we hugged
So I can prevent myself from feeling dejected when I’m supposed to laugh, worrying that the atmosphere would freeze over
Afraid that no one will watch my heart-breaking performance
 
Everyone encouraged me to seize the day
But I’m still reliving every scene that had your presence
I’m left in the same place, yearning for the cosy snow country that once warmed our hearts
Just pretend that I can’t fight the hypothermia, then I can only wake up from my sweet dreams
When I think of you being elsewhere this moment
How can I be at ease?
 
You’re the only one flying away on this journey
How can I admit that it’s just me who’s stalling?
Can we hold hands, watch snow and go ice skating, even if it’s just this season?
After all, it’s hard to get used to being separated so far apart
 
It’s clear that my biggest fear is being cold-shouldered
Yet I still wished you a happy breakup
I’ll intentionally seek out new raisons d’être to replace the moments when we hugged
So I can prevent myself from feeling dejected when I’m supposed to laugh, worrying that the atmosphere would freeze over
Afraid that no one will watch my heart-breaking performance
 
Everyone encouraged me to seize the day
But I’m still reliving every scene that had your presence
I’m left in the same place, yearning for the cosy snow country that once warmed our hearts
Even if I can fight the hypothermia, my sweet dreams are all but illusions
When I think of you being elsewhere this moment
To be at peace is all I can ask for
 
I’m thinking too much