A keresés eredménye

Love song accompanied by garmoni (My dear guest, don't say)

1. My dear guest, don't say
That you are leaving.
||: If you do, take me with you.
I am yours and nobody else's. :||
 
2. Love has the power
Of the rough sea.1
||: My mood changes
like the clouds in the sky. :||
 
3. On a mountain covered with snow
White clouds are flying.
||: What shall I do, when I look at you,
my eyes cannot get off you. :||
 
4. Don't look into my eyes so often,
Everyone will notice our love.
||: They will make us part
and we'll melt like snow. :||
 
5. I wish the one I love
Loved me too,
||: And then I wouldn't care if the whole of Alvani2
Hated me like the plague. :||
 

• 1. originally: water
• 2. Alvani: Village in K'akheti, where the Tushetians spend winter time. As Nino Naneishvili explained it, Alvani means 'world' for the Tushetians. :)

How come death can bring no peace?

For the remainder of what life’s got left,
here’s to one more final letter
Though written with a heavy wrist,
it’d be my last for sure
The weight of past winters –
a burden on my shoulders
A tranquil irony of how soon
it’ll all inevitably be over
Our memory but a heartache
Thinking of how close we used to be
Taking the tragic turns of life
Oh, how all the love
and years passed by
 
And though I really thought I’d stay this time...
 
Perhaps one day you’ll find me ridden of my consciousness
Driven into the chasm by the world and all its lies
Just promise should you find me
Remember love and let me go
Let me soar into the night
I’m headed westward with the birds
 
Only once in life we’re pacified
And that’s why my demise shall be glorified
I’m a burden to myself you know
And that’s why you shall feel me so despised
 
When any day so long from now they’ll cry in morbid reason
“If only you had meant a little more to him
He wouldn’t have had to meld the seasons
He had carried on his woes and lesions, all for you ‘til time would end”
 
But when in autumn day and night fall into mold
Aimlessly, all I see’s the time passing by
The numbness, all the booze and drugs
Will one day soon ne’er be enough
 
Just know before I’d let you break,
I’d break myself wondering if
“How come death can bring no peace?”
was just a rhetoric question
Never has a deceased’s flock
been pacified by their relief
I’ve no choice to disbelieve that summer
cover winter, like oceans over ice
 
... and though I really thought I’d stay this time
 

Alaska

Bestow me loneliness, bestow me hunger,
gift me desolation, gift me grief
Bestow me humbleness, let me like
the embers of fire die a thousand deaths
Let me shiver, let me shudder,
like the tide atrophy and seep away
Let me burst like waves at the shore
and declare every loss of control as
zeal
zeal
 
Come on: Live me dry!
Come on: Live me dry!
 
Cause like the sea round Alaska I was doomed to live in solitude
And that’s why the sea and eternity beard me
In this context indeed also created the loneliest islands
But there time still healed my wounds
and let me be me
to every time
 
I’m so sorry I never was the one
You’d have liked to see in me
Somehow like the dream of Alaska
The perception of more beauty than reality
 
Only time is a gift, especially if it is a common one
But I already had it back then thought,
that's exactly what will spill over to us at some point
It's okay and I don't want to be ungrateful again
But if a gift doesn't come from the heart,
you can keep it
also keep
 
Your name is my name
Your death is my death
Your name is my name
Your death is my death
 
But Alaska never gave me promised
contrary to you
The chance for an endless summer,
but maybe I wanted it way too much
You lied warm in my arms before
I again lost you to the cold days
As with you it also will be in Alaska, cause
also in summer it never will get really warm
also in summer it never will get really warm
 
Please drag me to the harshest cliffs,
as I just want to see the sea once more
But it’s no just us, also the sand of gone
winters still shines from older sorrow
And when snow molt again this year,
and one more year of my life elapsed
Then we ask us again like every springtime:
Maybe this year it’s gonna be our summer!
 

Advent

It’s been snowing since this morning,
the lake’s already frozen
And the last year passes off
feisty like traces in snow
We won’t know what future brings
until it happens
Nothing in this world lasts forever,
ebb is always followed by flow
 
Up in the mountains I feel freedom
with every step I take
This turns every moment
to one that lasts eternally
I feel the forgiveness of the rain,
the wind and its coldness
I become one with the moment,
so I’m not far away from home
 
I never really knew what or why,
just that something must happen
Time did never heal my wounds,
only robbed my confidence
That’s why I traveled to the back
of beyond, to wave this life goodbye
Say farewell to all of you,
to leave it all behind
 
Somber autumn will witness,
as the snowy woods bear the last year
Throws only shadows on what
once was and what will become
Lays void over void,
digs me a new grave every year
But I will live relentlessly until the day I saw
the moon from the other end of the world
 
Mankind so abandoned and volatile
forgets so easily
He will give it all and every time,
but it will never be enough
Cause it nearly takes a lifetime
to become the one you want to be
We reach our zenith
just the day we die
 
We exist more, than we really live
And so days pass like hours
We adjourn the important things year in and year out
Until we got
too old... ...and cold
too old... ...and cold
 
Somber autumn will witness,
as the snowy woods bear the last year
Throws only shadows on what
once was and what will become
Lays void over void,
digs me a new grave every year
But I will live relentlessly until the day I saw
the moon from the other end of the world
 

F 19.5

Solitude is nothing for cowards,
we’ve known this since we were kids
Being alone is not liked by everybody,
you just nurture the chimera of togetherness
It made us ailing and tight-lipped and we are now
still lonely when we’re around others
Let us wait in silence for the lost days,
that will never ever return
 
Death visited me again yesterday,
he brought me descriptive presents
He dyed the floor in front of me in bloody red,
and instead of apples, now children hang from the trees
In the night it’s getting cold outside,
and there are no places left to hide
One day there will be no way back from this
mayhem, as the last shot pays gaffer death
 
What’s the time my friend? Is it finally
ok to leave for home?
Or should we once more sit for a while,
waiting for the gone days to never return?
I can nearly stand and think straight after
more than ten bottles of wine
But I am anyhow still way too sober
to forgive myself
 
I’ve always thought I could drown this grudge,
that endless void I’m filled with
But as I did, I somehow
just feed its flames
I didn’t expect that much, but not that
this life will tear me apart
So tell me death, what’s all this void inside me?
“This void is emptiness that lasts”
 
What’s the time my friend? Is it finally
ok to leave for home?
Or should we once more sit for a while,
waiting for the gone days to never return?
I can nearly stand and think straight after
more than ten bottles of wine
But I am anyhow still way too sober
to forgive you
 
Cause when you fall asleep at night,
I stay awake and just fall for my dark thoughts
That will make me go insane one day
and will never let me sleep again
What shall I say more? How should I sleep
when also the world never gets peace?
And is constantly worrying me until I won’t
even feel the merest numbness
 
But death, as you never kept in mind
to return as early as you promised
Why did you leave me behind
with all this emptiness and void?
Come on, give me your hand gaffer, I show you
the way to the next drinking hole,
There’s always a last last drink,
but the next one is your treat…