2020.11.06.
Don't Look For Me
Don't look for me in my hideaways,
If you love me.
Don't be jealous, the winters are gloomy
Wherever you go.
Don't look for me in my wrathful lyrics,
I'm hurting now.
And don't believe I live in the sounds,
I just forget.
Don't look for me this winter,
In the image of me you've painted.
Don't look for me again in the single ones,
It's the first time I've lost it.
Don't look for me in big fears,
Only in small, full-of-shame ones.
Don't look for me by asking others,
Just follow the tired, silent ones.
Don't look for me in the terror of the crowd,
If I matter to you.
Don't fight it, because they are not afraid at all
Don't look at them.
Only steal your old dreams
And protect them
And believe it's worth it when I break
Laugh for me
Don't look for me this winter
In the image of me you've painted.
Don't look for me again in the single ones,
It's the first time I've lost it.
Don't look for me in big fears,
Only in small, full-of-shame ones.
Don't look for me by asking others,
Just follow the tired, silent ones.
2019.01.08.
An ending written on the door
Yesterday, in my neighborhood, everyone was talking about George
Who wrote ''the end'' on his door and then hung himself.
There were, as they say, a thousand reasons that pushed him.
He didn't talk to anyone, but he shared this with everyone.
He owed money to banks for his children to study,
He hadn't paid taxes, his utilies were shut off.
He lost his job after 25 years,
His house and land in the village were foreclosed.
Yesterday, in our neighborhood fears approached once more.
It smelled of blood but the crows crouched.
Now you care neighbor? And it affects you?
You found yourself only steps away from death.
Go on, pass by, if you have the guts, motherfucker,
Υοur prosperity turned into an illegal concentration of riches tonight.
I wanna hear from you now, since you know everything,
But you hadn't guessed this though.
George caught you off guard, c*nts.
Go make up elegies now.
Share big excuses,
Cover this hunting with words again.
George loved this neighborhood,
Now he has left his wife and children here.
He didn't burden any one of you with his problems.
But he wrote you an ending, so you can look at it from far away.