2021.06.07.
Identity
Who are you?
And where am I?
I can’t get anything in here
Why is that happening?
And when is the next time?
I want to leave all the things behind
You have to do like this, and this have to be like that
I wonder if there’s the point?
Even I can't stop thinking about it
But which one goes by that? And what's it gonna be like? There’s no ending.
It’s driving me crazy in the end
“It’s not me” I’ve been thinking like that
I've been living with my head down
“That’s you, isn’t it?” I forced myself to think like that
But it’s not me...
It’s not myself...
If I could make my wish
become true even only one thing
I would ask to leave me alone
I’m thinking about it again and again...
If I could go back just one time
I would not do something like
Killing my own dreams by myself again
“It’s not me” I’ve been thinking like that
I've been living with my head down
“That’s you, isn’t it?” I forced myself to think like that
But it’s not me...
It’s not myself...
“It’s not me” I’ve been thinking like that
I've been living with my head down
“That’s you, isn’t it?” I forced myself to think like that
But it’s not me...
It’s not myself...
No
There’s no one can replace “me” except “me”
“I” only live once
Even though “I” have tried to be someone else other than “myself”
But it’s not me...
It’s not myself...
2020.08.02.
1,000,000 TIMES
I look up at the star of a distant sky that remained balanced in the same night, as I express my wish.
I want the rising sound of the lines that connect everything to collapse until they get mixed deeply with the dawn.
I was following a trackless path,
Relying on a voiceless voice,
When a nameless song resonated.
Now I’m reaching out for a real prayer.
Even if this foolish, beautiful life can be oppressing,
The higher the wall is, the more meaning it has to overcome it.
If even 1 dream on 1000000 can come true,
I’ll keep fighting again and again.
It can’t begin without you,
It can’t be over if you don’t play the match.
In the story of “Me” and “You”,
It’s not possible to say “Who” or “What”.
You can change the ordinary world into an unconventional world,
Because you’re not alone.
Even when I was following a straight road, without disappearing, only anxiety was imprinted on me.
Before I knew it, I closed my heart tightly and forgot even myself, breaking the oath.
With a thirsty laughter,
I sent my running tears back,
I want to convey my distorted feelings.
Because at this rate I’ll lose it all.
I’m wrapped in a maddening, beautiful despair,
And the darker is the dark waiting ahead, the more there’ll be days where I get lost.
But there’s been “light” for 10 billion years, so,
Until the end, until the end I won’t throw away my wish.
Truth is weak and ephemeral, falsehood is strong, can erode it.
In the ending of “You” and “Me”,
“White” or “Black” are not decided.
Neither the ordinary miracle nor the fate waiting ahead can change,
Because they’re not individual.
Alone, we met,
Together, we united,
Fulfilling the promise of that day.
Even if this foolish, beautiful life can be oppressing,
The higher the wall is, the more meaning it has to overcome it.
If even 1 dream on 1000000 can come true,
I’ll keep fighting again and again.
It can’t begin without you,
It can’t be over if you don’t play the match.
In the story of “Me” and “You”,
It’s not possible to say “Who” or “What”.
You can change the ordinary world into an unconventional world,
Because you’re not alone.
2019.03.16.
False Neurose
Kill me, the person from way back
Kill me, the person from long ago
What am I doing with them at this time?
Why do I have to go along?
When did I come to be this way?
Be just as now
I walked in a world completely stained with lies
I only have a paper scrap in my hands
So that I wouldn't get lost, I lit up a fire
before someone wakes up
Nobody cares about me (I will not stand up)
Nobody knows about me (I will not wake up)
This entwining feeling that I have is always
like a chain of faulty situations
For how long? To what extent?
I will always be standing here from now on
They just talk among themselves and they will forever
Tell me the reason why you're alive
Tell me the reason why you're proud
Right now 'I' am no longer 'I'
'Love' and 'dreams' they all vanished
Everything is meaningless
Nothing I wanna know
Tell me the reason why you're alive
Be just as now
'If you have a dream you can accomplish it'?
If so, that'll mean that there's no one unhappy
The contradictory words are now confusing foolish Alice
Get lost in yourself
Nobody cares about me (You will not stand up)
Nobody knows about me (You will not wake up)
They just talk among themselves and they will forever
Tell me the reason why you're alive
Tell me the reason why you're proud
Right now 'I'am no longer 'I'
'Love' and 'dreams' they all vanished
Everything is meaningless
Kill me, the person from way back
Kill me, the person from long ago
'Who' is the one called 'I' now?
'This' and 'that' they are all the same
and that won't change
Nothing I wanna know
'Everyone' is seeing the same world
Don't you feel like 'I'am a rat inside a dreamland?
There's only now so
Tell me the reason why you're alive
Tell me the reason why you're proud
Right now 'I'am no longer 'I'
That's right, 'I' am a 'NEUROTIC of lies'
Nothing will change
Yeah Nothing I wanna know
2018.12.07.
WINNER
TEN!
We will be winning again
NINE!
We will be shining right here
EIGHT!
You can’t do anything without me forever
SEVEN!
SIX!
We will be walking again
FIVE!
We will be taking over
FOUR!
You can’t do anything without me
THREE!TWO!ONE!
Are you ready?
In a distant darkness, I’m screaming alone.
I kept waiting for the moment.
Carved deep in my memory,
I looked for my determination.
Let’s take everything that there is in here now and make them our own.
You don’t have to hold back! Our mind is made up!
The party isn’t over yet. Come on! Make some noise!
Isn’t the “present” an unsettled situation?
There’s no meaning yet!
Let’s take everything away before it’s lost.
Isn’t the “dream” speaking about this era?
There’s no victory in those voices.
The last thing in my hand…
This is my own way!!
Every time my heart was unhappy,
looking at the sky, I cried.
I didn’t expect it to arrive so suddenly,
I was perplexed.
We will be winning again
We will be shining right here
You can’t do anything without me forever
There’s no meaning in hunting “love”,
I want to be my own lover,
even if I have to ignore all our good times.
There’s no time to uncover the “lie”,
I just want you to see it.
Even if it will result in a total darkness…
This is my own way!!
Even if “me” loses “you”,
this breath can’t stop
until I find the real “answer”.
Isn’t the “present” an unsettled situation?
There’s no meaning yet!
Let’s take everything away before it’s lost.
Isn’t the “dream” speaking about this era?
There’s no victory in those voices.
The last thing in my hand…
This is my own way!!