A keresés eredménye

Abandonment

The wind of that old memory
Reaches the hideout of my abandonment
And with the dead dust of yesterday,
Your love also returned.
I don't know if you are living happily
Or if the world has defeated you...
And if living without desiring to go on
You search for the peace of dying.
 
The doubt about your absence and my guilt,
The sorrow of having to remember.
The dream about the past that accuses me,
Hands that do not wish to forgive.
The friendly pain of being with your shadow,
The remorse of knowing that I am surviving.
The faraway pain of hearing your name said
The sad voices that insist on coming back.
 
I no longer dream that you will return
To the failure of my life
Nor that in your heartbeat
I would find a source to go on.
I only want that if you are also
Upon the cross of abandonment,
You will know how to forget me in your forgiveness...
All in all, look at what I've become.
 
The pain of your eternal absence,
The sorrow of knowing that you will not come back.
The pain of listening in my solitude
Voices that accuse me as soon as they reach me.
The friendly pain of being with your shadow,
The remorse of knowing that I am surviving.
The faraway pain of hearing your name said
The dead voices of the joyful times past.
 
I don't know if you are living happily
Or if the world has defeated you...
And if living without desiring to go on
You search for the peace of dying.