2021.05.29.
Paint
Three strings around my neckAs I've lived my life
I felt these three colors
I've kept these thoughts
With full, unbroken brush strokes
I paint with blue, red, and green
My mom was a stranger who I stopped calling
My heart has never felt at peace, even as a child I was uneasy
I was a bright kid without the typical lighting
The feverish feeling at this age was the color blue
Three strings around my neck
As I've lived my life
I felt these three colors
I've kept these thoughts
With full, unbroken brush strokes
I paint with blue, red, and green
I'll get drunk off goodbyes, flying to the stars
I was foolish to live without treating anything like it was special
I sang during the day and got drunk at night
My hot summer at age 27 was the color red
Three strings around my neck
As I've lived my life
I felt these three colors
I've kept these thoughts
With full, unbroken brush strokes
I paint with blue, red, and green
I walk at night and write down the things I long for
I walk because I enjoy it, I write because I'm nervous
Truthfully, I don't know how to live well
I'm a decent adult, but I grow small when I'm hurt
When I open my closed eyes, only green remains
Three strings around my neck
As I've lived my life
I felt these three colors
I've kept these thoughts
With full, unbroken brush strokes
I paint with blue, red, and green