2018.08.23.
One room sugar life
My emotion is glittering, it's glittering now
You are all of me
Let's delete everything else,
that reveals this sweet world is a fantasy
My love got out of focus,
I have no communication with the outer world
cuz I don't want anyone to see
the heart which I hide my love in
If I love, or whatever I do,
nothing will get stained
Neither angel nor devil
whispers to you as long as you are here
With this secret slow beat in a pocket on school uniform,
Let's run away together
I know eternity has no meaning
but, please stay there forever
My emotion is glittering, it's glittering now
This is the sole time when I am 'me'
I don't want anything else
that reveals this sweet world is a fantasy
Say wow!
Let's smile,
I don't want gray feelings
Let's keep on singing songs of loves
Let's stay in this bright room
My identity is still strayed
Oh, maybe have I never looked for that?
I always desire 'I love you'
and I really can't do anything by myself
This girl, that girl,
I, and she is
×× all terrible
'This is what makes me so bad'
I understood, but I was satisfied with myself on the other hand
But only you are perfect
because you are 'you' in this hustle and bustle
You turned all the ambiguity that I hide into ''me''
The fake attitude like an angel
and stuttering unsocial-mode
are all I want to show you
Laugh at what I'm not good at too!
'It's not my true self'
I don't give a shit to such things now
I just idle each day away
however, that is also a part of me
If it were not for this tasteless life,
Neither I or you are here!
My emotion is glittering, you make it glittering now,
but this moment is not everything!
I think I want both lies and truths in this sweet world
cuz they're all me!
Say wow!
Shout out your emotion!
I no longer need the mask I wore
Let's keep on singing songs of love
Let's change everything from this room
2018.01.30.
But That's Not How It Is
The curtain opens on today
Constantly the worst
With this heartburn in my good intentions
I've had enough
With you always acting
Like you don't care as much as you can
And these irritating feelings
Just make me more annoyed
I'm desperate to change
But wanting to change isn't like that
And the more desperate I become the less I can move
These chains constricting my heart are visible to all
'I said I don't like it, I don't like it like this'
'Wait, wait! Don't leave me'
I'm gonna go crazy
We aren't alone
We aren't that unfortunate
Look, if you try your hardest
You can do it!
(say! wow! wow!)
You can fall in love
There's not a single thing
You can't do anything about
So relax, relax
Do it at your own pace
(say! wow! wow!)
And take it easy
Today and tomorrow will always be good days
Laughing and crying, happy forever...
But that's not how it is
Ah, sometimes things are great
But I've forgotten
How to smile
No matter where I go
Feels like the wrong place
Though I have no right to choose especially
I say that I've changed
But it's not for the better
The more I try to push forward, my past
Looms behind me, beckoning to me lazily today as well
'Why, why? Tell me properly!'
'Keep more in step with me'
I'm becoming so lonely
We aren't alone
We aren't that unfortunate
Look, if you try your hardest
You can do it!
(say! wow! wow!)
You can fall in love
There's not a single thing
You can't do anything about
So relax, relax
Do it at your own pace
(say! wow! wow!)
And take it easy
Today and tomorrow will always be good days
Laughing and crying, happy forever...
But that's not how it is
We aren't alone
We aren't that unfortunate
Look, if you try your hardest
You can do it!
(say! wow! wow!)
You can fall in love
There's not a single thing
You can't do anything about
So relax, relax
Do it at your own pace
(say! wow! wow!)
And take it easy
Today and tomorrow will always be good days
Getting angry at this or that
Having this or that dream
Laughing and crying, happy forever
But that's not how it is