2021.12.05.
A rotten apple
ChorusThe river of the time runs into the distance unstoppably,
I rock on her waves, like a thin reed,
That's how my life passes by me slowly,
And I feel like I don't notice, how she passes.
I made peace, that the flow carries me away
Into the abyss of the times, where a clock delay it's running,
I don't know at all about everything around,
The only person I can trust is me.
I can't tell, whether I see a dream or reality,
I don't even have the words to describe how I feel now,
I'm too tired of yearning, but sadness haunts me.
Why did the circulation of these feelings capture me?
If you talk to me, you won't hear my answer,
As you can never conquer my heart with words,
I has only to take the first step - then everything will change,
The world will fall into darkness, it'll be black for all time.
Verse 1
What the new day has in store for me? May be, I'm doomed?
How real is this world? Perhaps, it's the charms of a dream?
Can I feel pain? Can I feel sadness?
My mind is at odds with my soul, I have no answer.
I'm too tired for all of this, I'm too lazy even to lift a finger,
I can't find the right words, can't understand other people.
Is it possible to turn things around and purify my soul?
Or people like me can never go this way?
Chorus
The river of the time runs into the distance unstoppably,
I rock on her waves, like a thin reed,
That's how my life passes by me slowly,
And I feel like I don't notice, how she passes.
I made peace, that the flow carries me away
Into the abyss of the times, where a clock delay it's running,
I don't know at all about everything around,
The only person I can trust is me.
I can't tell, whether I see a dream or reality,
I don't even have the words to describe how feel now,
I'm too tired of yearning, but sadness haunts me.
Why does the circulation of these feelings capture me?
If you talk to me, you won't hear my answer,
As you can never conquer my heart with words,
I has only to take the first step - then everything will change,
The world will fall into darkness, it'll be black for all time.
Extra
This is a hopeless century, where the light of hope has faded,
Whether I exist or not? I can’t find the answer.
If someone casually pronounces my name,
Let him add a word, what she lives for.
Whether my home is in the right place and whether it is my time?
Perhaps, I was born for nothing?
Is it possible to turn things around and purify my soul?
Or people like me can never go this way?
I can't tell, whether I see a dream or reality,
I don't even have the words to describe how feel now,
I'm too tired of yearning, but sadness haunts me.
Why does the circulation of these feelings capture me?
If you talk to me, you won't hear my answer,
As you can never conquer my heart with words,
I has only to take the first step - then everything will change,
The world will fall into darkness, it'll be black for all time.
The last verse
If I take a step forward, If I take a step forward -
I'll destroy everything in this case,
If I grieve, if I grieve,
May be, I can clean up my heart with tears.
I know nothing about you and about me,
In this world everything for me is unknown.
If I manage to rise the veil of my heavy eyelids,
I'll destroy the world in this case, let the darkness devour it!