A keresés eredménye

Lip self-service

I decided
to be nice to myself,
pour me a bath,
spread all the pictures of me
and comment them thoroughly.
I will pay myself some lip service1
Talk to myself exclusively about me.
Praises said out loud,
roses to congratulate myself
for being me.
 
I decided
to look at myself,
to scrutinize myself in the mirror,
to unveil all my charms,
to worship myself from head to toe.
I will pay myself some lip service
Talk to myself exclusively about me.
Praises said out loud,
roses to congratulate myself
for being me.
 
I decided
to desire myself,
to make up new sensations for me,
to be overburdened with emotions,
to become my own obsession.
I will pay myself some lip service
Talk to myself exclusively about me.
Praises said out loud,
roses to congratulate myself
for being me.
 
So many roses I won't be sending you...
So many roses I won't be sending you...
 

• 1. lit. 'send myself some flowers'

Far behind

I should have...
If only
I had...
And I keep
thinking of it.
I recall
the whole ride.
 
You said nothing.
You knew.
If only you could
get me unstuck1
You stayed
far behind.
 
Long, so long
ago2
Far, so far
behind
 
If I shouted
If I called
If I could
I would try
I would catch up
I would take
the whole ride again.
 
We happened to each other3
We liked each other
We thought
we could
get away
from everything,
leave everything
 
Long, so long
ago
Far, so far
behind
 
I saw you
I couldn't
A glimpse of another4
held me back.
I cried
in secret.
 
I kept quiet
as long as I could.
You did all you could,
but you're too far away.
You're no longer crying.
You left me
 
long, so long
ago
Far, so far
behind
 

• 1. not quite sure what she means by that. I just picked the meaning that seemed most likely to me
• 2. it also means 'behind' but can be used to refer to the past
• 3. This French is rather unusual. The literal 'we had each other [only once]' would be too ambiguous
• 4. that makes some kind of fuzzy sense in French, like 'a feature/memory of someone else held me back'