2020.08.01.
Rainbow
No matter how much time passes, I can't reach itHow many times more do I have to repeat these days?
Even if I do reach it, it doesn't end there
for even if I grasp it, the mirage slips and fades away
I get it, it's no good like this
Where did my self that ocassionally acted as my 'ideal self' go?
I get it, if it's like this it'll end
Below a downpour, I'm circling the same spot
Since when have I been like this?
I've turned against that special existence like a 'rainbow'
Even if I peek through the mirror, I can't see myself
The moment I noticed that, once again I fell into solitude
The one who pierced me was my past self who told himself lies
The things I dislike about myself have increased again
I get it, this words are my own
It's just that I've been soaking in the remains of the dead
I get it, no one but I
will cross the sky full of rainbows
What I'm chasing is a future crafted by myself
I've blame it on someone else again
I get it, it's no good like this
Is it fine to believe in my 'future self' that I discovered with these eyes?
I know it, I have to go
to the other side of the rainbow, where another future awaits me