A keresés eredménye

MOMENT

The nights tied together change their shape
The pair who follow the light
 
To the point of praying and singing of eternity
If I want to be here
The dazzling days
Carry the seasons that go by
 
The pair that don't disappear
 
Still now endlessly,
And only the dreams that accumulate
days without adornment
Will someday be as if they held your entirety
 
I held the moment in my heart
 
The pair that don't disappear
 
Still now endlessly,
The days without adornment
The hand that reaches out to wish for tomorrow
Was my strength to live
 
Still now endlessly,
And only the dreams that accumulate
days without adornment
Will someday be as if they held your entirety
 
The nights tied together change their shape
The pair who follow the light
 

Red

The more I get to know you...
The less I understand you
 
Though I can't see the 'Red String'
I believed in you, and that won't change
 
Hold me, even though I knew you were lying, I can't hide my struggling heart
Your heat sinking into my lips is so satisfying, I can't go back anymore
 
Under the soaking rain
I tremble without an umbrella
To embrace solitude is scary,
so I yearned for you
 
Though we can't see the 'Red String'
We want each other and that won't change
 
Hold me, even though I knew you were lying, I can't hide my struggling heart
Your heat sinking into my lips is so satisfying, I can't go back anymore
 
I nod at your words, mixed in with my sigh
'We'll cross paths and laugh together again'
I want to believe it
 
Though I can't see the 'Red String'
I believed in you, and that won't change
 
If there's an end to everything
I'm sure we'll be eternal...
If there's no such thing as certainty
I'll vow to our tomorrow
 
Hold me, even though I knew you were lying, I can't hide my struggling heart
Your heat sinking into my lips is so satisfying, I can't go back anymore
 

DEPRAVITY

You can't see it in that photograph
Neither the absurd reasons nor the buried truths
 
So you revere violence spilled by obsession
as God, instead of calling it sin?
[You should die]
The other side of truth is always like that
In tears of blood
[Somebody has drowned]
 
Our connected hearts
Our linked desires
What do we lose in the untimely finale?
 
When I learned of the past, I realized how depraved this place is
My head was filled to the brim
With despair
 
You can't see it in that photograph
Neither the absurd reasons nor the buried truths
 
So you revere violence spilled by obsession
as God, instead of calling it sin?
[You should die]
The other side of truth is always like that
In tears of blood
[Somebody has drowned]
 
The bottomless darkness won't let me go
 
I crumble with powerlessness
My nights were sleepless
I killed my weakness
And even my tears withered
 
Our connected hearts
Our linked desires
What do we lose in the untimely finale?
 

AN UNBEARABLE FACT

I turn off the lights, my thoughts sink
A warped blood relationship that deforms love
 
-The fact-
 
I can't remember your smile
Yeah, I can't hear a thing
 
Cold wind scrapes against the window
The nadir of my conscious bursts with idealism
 
I don't need words anymore
The 'truth' is unbearable
 
I tear out my throat
Leaving no residue
All that's left is my eyes crazy with despair
 
I don't need words anymore
The 'truth' is unbearable
 
Tearing out my throat
I saw in the darkness of isolation
Dangling love and hatred
 
Looking Death in the eyes, I brush against 'the end'
My eyes go mad from the despair of abandonment
 

Trampling Shadow

The dry sound of the footsteps,
The moonlight that stains your skin,
Your cold hands....
If I try not to rip it apart
Can you give up that hesitation?
 
We’re looking for a reason to keep believing in the future
But somewhere along the way it all broke down
Now everything looks so wrong...
I wonder still we able to smile?
 
Let’s hold each other tight so we won’t forget
Even if someday my voice can no longer reach you
The sound of our overlapping footsteps
Disappears...
In the falling rain.
 
Let’s hold our hands tight
That’s the only thing we need now
And you're the only light I can see....
 
Let’s hold each other tight so we won’t forget
Even if someday my voice can no longer reach you
The sadness takes control over me and I even can't
Hold my umbrella up against the pattering of the falling rain.
 
Keep loving me
Even though my heart has become so fragile
 
Together, we’ll look towards the light as we continue to fall
Finally, my shadow overlapped with yours...
 
Don’t forget that this is not the end.
 

Falling

Since then how long
Do you know how long it’s been?
Let’s leap into the depths of chaos, now, so we can become entwined
Falling down
Deep in to the dark
 
Distorted screams unravel the past, my mind getting away from me
I hid my dimly obscured eyes
Stuck in my head I keep lapsing into the ghost of my past and going crazy
Where am I supposed to start
 
In those depths distorted, my thoughts may be an ever-growing contradiction but
In those depths distorted, my thoughts are the beloved shadow of my former self
 
Scream, if you cannot suppress the agony from rejection
Suffer, now that you have seen what you were like in the past when you’d lost yourself
 
We just believe in ourselves to die
I know you were the same
Carrying this same pain together, we are breaking
And it’s fine if we get smashed to pieces
To be reborn again
I’m gonna fall
 
Distorted screams unravel the past, my mind getting away from me
I hid my dimly obscured eyes
The grating sound stuck in my head
 
Inside me
Something’s changing
I see an ending
Take it all in
I’m gonna fall
 
I watch the sadness as it slowly disappears
We just believe in ourselves to die
I know you were the same
We carry this same pain, together, aware it’s temporary
Don’t forget, this is not the end
So let’s open our eyes and fall
 
We just believe in ourselves to die
 
It’s okay being broken like this
 

Body temperature (TRACES VOL. 2 ver.)

The sun had sunk in the winter sky… streetlights… wind pierces my skin
How many shadows are creeping up to me? I’m taken away, in the midst of a dream
 
Fall down
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom, cruelty beyond comprehension
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom, where animal lust awaits, mouth open
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom, cruelty beyond comprehension
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom…how many times have I cried out in vain?
 
Once my eyes get used to the dark, I see a ceiling, the surrounding voices grating on me
How many hands are coming for me? I need to know that this is a dream
 
Fall down
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom, cruelty beyond comprehension
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom, where animal lust awaits, mouth open
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom, cruelty beyond comprehension
Down to where cruelty lurks on the bottom…how many times have I stifled my voice and choked on my tears?
 
Please tell me that this is just a horrible dream
How much longer do I have to scream in agony and pain
Please tell me that this is just a horrible dream
I screamed over and over with my fading voice
 
There is not a hand that could comb through my tangled hair
Please forgive my broken breaths, and the warmth that seems to be leaving my body
 
Stifling my voice, I kept telling myself as I slipped away
Don’t forget how to stay alive
On this night, trembling and stifling my voice, I thought of spring that is to come after a long winter
 
Please tell me that this is just a horrible dream
How much longer do I have to scream in agony and pain
 
Please tell me that this is just a horrible dream
I want to try smiling one last time
 
The dream that’s ending here,
This pain that is finally letting go of me,
This wish that won’t be granted,
And the future I can’t see anymore
 

BURIAL APPLICANT

Hello my dear, kill me gently.
A burned body doesn’t leave you.
If you grieve that you can’t save me, then you saw death itself in me, didn’t you?
Should I not take your pained breathing as an act?
 
My trembling won’t stop in the onslaught of “creaking noise”
I want to be shielded from the pain my brain continues grasping
 
Die for me…, you can’t save it
Is it wrong? Try to answer me
That there are no lies in the tears you shed
From those eyes so unfocused
My hand…, eyes…, mind…, and breath.
In the end, what stays is a grossly burnt and corrupted record and
The ruins that couldn’t save a child
 
The shape of a deranging subject–from hatred and in terror I scream
In love detached, why must even this body rot away
Inside redly laughing darkness, with your every breath uttered
The words of non-salvation look a lot like that “hatred”
 
My trembling won’t stop in the onslaught of “creaking noise”
I want to be shielded from the pain my brain continues grasping
 
Hello my dear, kill me gently.
A burned body doesn’t leave you.
May my prayers reach into the deep, and to those ears that will know my first cry and screams
Somehow, somehow, I sink as though your bleary eyes will not see me
Deeply… so that you never again have to touch this body
And you laugh even in those distorted memories
 
Forget me…, you can’t save it.
Is it wrong? Try to answer me
That the tears you shed from those unfocused eyes are all lies
My hand…, eyes…, mind…, and breath.
What’s left at the very end is a grossly burnt and corrupted recollection and
The cradle that couldn’t love a child
 

Mournful Wilderness

If colors of spring, savage in my calm, were something I could forget,
I would immerse my eyes in the beauty of degradation, and only laugh because of my solitude
Colours of spring are for others–holding my breath, I swim through the mire
As expected, drowning when I can swim is pointless
Through this hand that kills reality,
I could’ve easily inflicted damage
I fill in my name
 
Decayed roots stir the water’s surface, gears turning as though warped
I hearken to the grating sound and wonder, can they neatly go off course?
Everything is a shallow sea of taboos, so impure that I mistake it with brilliance
 
Goodbye, I fall through lawless darkness
Goodbye, this is the end
 
Tears, a rain of lamentation, overflow every time I face nothingness
And words I’m composing blur
Tears, eventually they’ll dry and I’ll be killed by silence
At the end of this game of shadow tag, I lose my mind
 
Decayed roots stir the water’s surface, gears turning as though warped
Throwing myself towards the grating sound, I noticed, I noticed that I look like that
 
Tears, a rain of lamentation, overflow every time I face nothingness
And words I’m composing blur
Tears, they fall with loneliness, and if I’m to live in silence
I bear in mind I’m never to laugh again
 
There is me who loved you There is me who stared at you
There is me who sought you There is me who lost you
There is you who loved me There is you who stares at me
There is you who broke me There is you who seized me
There is you who killed me