2019.01.01.
In the Ward
You have been through a lot since your mother and father broke up, since that you have been living in fear in a wayYou started to cut yourself, you said it makes you feel better, you say that you're anxious but you just can't tell why
Father home alone wondering what went wrong, a suicidal daughter in a ward in Pitkäniemi1
Treatment periods one after another, all these different pills you should take
You started to escape, started to drink too, started to give sex for alcohol
You looked at others being happy while at the same time you tried to kill yourself harder
When you thought of life, you always started to cry, you cut your arms and were given stitches in the hospital
'What is wrong with the world' you pondered in a psychiatric hospital
You felt like no one needed you, rather anxiety, depression and insomnia started to bother you again
So young yet so much problems
You wondered if it was just easier to stop living
Woo-oo-oo-oo-oo
It feels so bad to be in the ward
Woo-oo-oo-oo-oo
It feels so bad to be in the ward
You're locked in your room, security guards behind your door
Bloody scars in your arms and legs
Yesterday you tried to kill yourself once again, nurses come and as how you feel
Well what do you think, no one helps me
Let me out of here already, for fuck's sake
The last bit of joy dies in the closed ward, you hit your head on the wall and try to bite through your skin
None of these nurses know how you feel, they have been giving you pills for a long time without anything changing
The girl escaped and flipped off at the nurses, boozed and was raped at night
Little girl, I don't want the pain to win, and when you messaged me saying that you get empowered from me
I took up a pen, wrote your life down here
I and your family care about you, you're safe here
I want to see you smile today, and I know you smile when you listen to this
I want to see you smile today, and I know you smile when you listen to this
Woo-oo-oo-oo-oo
It feels so bad to be in the ward
Woo-oo-oo-oo-oo
It feels so bad to be in the ward
- 1. Alongside with Niuvanniemi in Kuopio, Pitkäniemi in Tampere is one of the two psychiatric hospitals in Finland which offers treatment for especially difficult-to-treat adolescents. Both Pitkäniemi and Niuvanniemi are infamous for being the 'last place' a young person should be taken to