A keresés eredménye

Your Suitcases Are at the Door

What did you think, that I was going to put up with you forever?
you didn't believe that I'd make up my mind and tell you to go to hell?
but you keep coming home drunk and without any money for the bills,
you're only scaring my children who hear how you insult me
and how you mistreat me.
 
You're mistaken, you're not coming into my house,
your suitcases are already at the door,
go on, go wherever you want
because this is my house and now you're going to respect it.
 
May God forgive my transgression should it be a sin,
I do it solely for the protection of what's most sacred
I'd rather die than see my children
led by your example
and in the hands of that crucifix I've left
my marriage certificate.
 
You're mistaken, you're not coming into my house,
your suitcases are already at the door,
go on, go wherever you want
because this is my house and now you're going to respect it.
 

Beats to the Breast*

The good in me is running out
and the bad is starting to overwhelm me within,
I don't know how to kill but I'm going to learn
so that I can dispel all the harm that you've done to me.
If I should become a killer because of you,
you'll go straight to hell for that.
 
I'm starting to become like you now,
the same way you used to do in the town church,
where you'd kneel and kiss the cross
and you'd weep as you'd beat at your breast1,
I believed that you were praying for me,
who would have thought you were lying to me?
 
If because of these things you've just done
you anger God and he sends for you to be punished,
I'm going to pray a rosary for you
so he may forgive you for how wicked you've been,
and if the Lord should have placed you in the fire already,
I'd be prepared to burn alongside you.
 
I'm starting to become like you now,
the same way you used to do in the town church,
where you'd kneel and kiss the cross
and you'd weep as you'd beat at your breast,
I believed that you were praying for me,
who would have thought you were lying to me?
 

• 1. the act of beating at your breast when reciting the 'Confiteor', the part that reads: ...through my fault, through my fault, through my most grievous fault...

Tears and Anger

I weave your visage in my sky
and your name remains in my mind,
and there's tears and anger in my eyes
because you belong to another man.
 
I don't know how you were able to escape
from my web where you one day fell in,
like a bird you went off and flew away
and now my arms are waiting for you.
 
I knew that you had to leave
because you he already ran through your veins,
and although you swear you'll never return,
I can bet that you'll come back.
 
You left me forever
but within me, your memory is sacred,
so sacred in fact, that you're still with me
and it's your love that I'm unable to forget.
 
I knew that you had to leave
because you he already ran through your veins,
and although you swear you'll never return,
I can bet that you'll come back.
 

Father, It’s Not What a Man Should Do*

You knew what you meant to me,
your behavior destroyed my worship for you
and the respect that I had for you
has changed because of how you've mistreated my mother.
 
My siblings and I are planning
to defend her from now on,
she doesn't have to put up with you,
your insults, deceits and disrespect anymore.
 
Father, what you do isn't what a man should do,
my mother suffers greatly and it's because of you,
poor thing, she keeps quiet out of shame,
she does it for us, don't think that she does it for you,
I swear my mother isn't alone,
she won't put up with anymore of your deceits,
you can go because she doesn't love you either.
 
Father, why is it always the children
that have to pay for the parents' mistakes?
 
Father, you don't know what it feels like
when I saw you embracing that other woman,
it was in that moment that I realized
that you weren't the man that I idolized for so long.
 
If my mother is just a nuisance for you
then I beg you to stop causing her anymore pain
because you're the one who has failed her
and defending her against you is my obligation.
 
Father, what you do isn't what a man should do,
my mother suffers greatly and it's because of you,
poor thing, she keeps quiet out of shame,
she does it for us, don't think that she does it for you,
I swear my mother isn't alone,
she won't put up with anymore of your deceits,
you can go because she doesn't love you either.