A keresés eredménye oldal 7
Találatok száma: 346
2020.11.09.
MSCW
On the fine edge of lies
The running blood
As a ruby drop.
The fingers are trying to sew
The brow cut,
But to no avail.
The youth is seeping
By sugar of pink tears
On the paleness of fear.
Adults are lying
And they're doing it seriously -
Doing it boldly and rudely.
And we don't even need an excuse
For the wrath of protest,
The high-voltage current of alien manifestos
Is sparking in our veins,
The nails of rusty ideas, of garbage desires
Are driven into our foreheads,
They weaken the youth day by day
In the captivity of expectations.
Angels are above me,
Above liberated Moscow,
The light snow of silent wings
And one night for all.
Black ink on white brains
I scratched words with knives of roods.
Watch, the head will be rolling on the pavement
Screaming the curses.
As a tangle of lies to the dirty from blood legs
Of those, who were shouting:
'This world belongs to you' -
The world of despair.
Angels are above me,
Above liberated Moscow,
The light snow of silent wings
And one night for all.
2020.11.02.
COLORS
I’ll bring along a single dust-covered treasure
and make a wish.
I brush it off a bit with the innocence I’d given up on.
Even if I throw it away, I can’t get rid of it.¹
It’s crammed in the depths of my desk.
The roadmap to my future, marbled and stained—²
Those borrowed puddles were vaguely dyed,
blurring the fragments of someone’s feelings.
The weather looks good—a gradation that spans the sky.
Rainbow-colored cruise packed with junk, soar!
I’ll cast a shining shadow on this richly-colored, unfriendly town.
Without a destination, a compass, or a mast,
I’ll sail on to the event horizon.
I gathered up so much that I couldn’t carry it all,
a treasury of infinite value.
After locking it up, I forgot all about it.
I’m starting to remember that vividness.
The wind’s direction looks good—coordination from the helmsman.
Rainbow-colored cruise packed with junk, soar!
I’ll cast a shining shadow on this richly-colored, unfriendly town.
Without a destination, a compass, or a mast,
I’ll sail on to the event horizon.
I’ve gotta be the same as them. I’ve gotta do the same as them.
A monochrome picture, a one-colored palette.
What do I want to do?
Let’s toss it all out there, the entire ship!
By bundling up all the unnecessary things,
I’ll make a mess of the world.
A station where the regrets I’ve left behind come raining down.
I dug my feet in and couldn’t move.
But when I cut off the sealing wax on each of the unaddressed envelopes hidden in the drawer,
I see that they’re all written invitations.
The coloring signs³
are a gradation that dyes the sky.
Rainbow-colored cruise, in order to fill that void,
I’ll cross over that richly-colored sea of entwining gray area.
I’ll turn the wind bearing down on me into energy,
and sail higher and higher,
to the event horizon.
2020.11.02.
Prayer of Machina
My twisted desire for salvation has weathered away.
If you won’t even sear it onto my retinas, then—
“──────”
Someone else will decide
“──────”
tomorrow’s meal for you, too.
It’s written in fate.
Please, do not save our frail selves.
I gaze at the painted-over sky.
The ceiling is thick like an oil painting.
“Freedom,”
The word was said almost like a prayer.
I want to make certain of it—
that I wasn’t forced to choose it or anything.
Hey, Machina...
I started to struggle amidst the pouring rain.
I won’t hand over a single one of my mud-covered footprints.
I break off a branch of the acacia.
“Take a look.”
Muddled with noise, the record sings of a broken back.
The disseminating, comfortable recommendation of salvation is wrong.
I’ll deem that pulsation to be correct, gracelessly.
“WARNING!”
“STOP!”
We don’t need any salvation.
I gaze at the trampled gods.
With ignorance thick like pigment on an oil painting,
“Freedom,”
the rain fails to mingle with my tears.
I want to make certain of it—
the conclusion that threw off the book balance.
Hey, Machina...
I want to drown in this stolen flattery,
and yet, prayer soup is served on a silver plate.
But if this world will never go the way I want,
then it’s better that way.
Outside of my collapsed understanding
is a convenient pantheism.
I want to deny this sophistry.
I can get back up again, so—
Such cruel yet beloved outrageousness is called a miracle, isn’t it?
I recall those footprints.
I gaze at the painted-over sky.
The ceiling is thick like an oil painting.
“Freedom,”
The word was said almost like a prayer.
I want to make certain of it—
that I wasn’t forced to choose it or anything.
Hey, Machina...
I started to struggle amidst the pouring rain.
I won’t hand over a single one of my mud-covered footprints.
I break off a branch of the acacia.
“Take a look.”
I lift the needle from the record.
I don’t need
the song of prayer anymore.
Deus Ex Machina!
2020.11.02.
The Idol's Religious Involuntary Manslaughter
A message pandering to popularity,
I laugh, I embellish, I sympathize,
and along to a topic-adorned subculture,
I’ll dance, I’ll sing into the morning!
I’m ignorant of any balls without written invitations.
I’ve put on my glass slippers!
“Ah, wait up. Can I upload that photo to Instagram later?”
“Sure~”
I want you to look at me more.
My shattered individuality, the words of my life
2020.11.02.
Crossbody Front
A rerun of that TV drama flashes back.
I’d thought I was just watching it out of habit, but,
it makes me honestly say, “Strangely enough,
he was that kind of person,” after making sure that was the right answer.
This sort of thing isn’t like me.
I’m not that kind of person.
I wonder if that means I’m in love...
I don’t want to see you!
If we end up meeting now, then surely
the white line that I’ve been so noncommittally drawing up until “now” will be lost in the wind.
Ah! Every time I blink, we meet again!
My sour expression is thanks to you and the sun.
I want to hand over all of the unfair feelings deep in my heart,
a crossbody halation*.
Starring in that kind of youth-oriented commercial
you often see around—what a complete pipe dream.
Virgin Romance and love and whatnot—
I thought they were all fantastical forgeries.
I just can’t brush them off,
I can’t give them up.
You’ve just about got me completely surrounded.
I don’t want to see you!
If we end up meeting now,
then by all accounts,
the pilot who’s been getting so bent out of shape up until “now” will be fired? Give me a break!
I swam through the asphalt. This is the front line of my battle.
I sit before you, pretending to retie my undone shoelaces.
I want to put another uncertain 100 miles between us,
a crossbody halation.
I don’t want to see you!
If we end up meeting now, then surely
the white line that I’ve been so noncommittally drawing up until “now” will be lost in the wind.
Ah! Every time I blink, we meet again!
My sour expression is thanks to you and the sun.
I want to hand over all of the unfair feelings deep in my heart,
a crossbody halation.
2020.11.02.
Seeking From the Mirage
“If you only walk just a little bit further, you’ll find an oasis.”
I shake off that familiar voice. I was looking at an illusion.
If the light ties up the false images, projecting hope, then
any elapsed time will also reverse. Though, perhaps that is cruel.
If I could only be forgiven, then I’d entrust my body to the white cloth
and leave everything to a momentary peace.
Was the one who heard the words
“don’t grow old and die!” myself from days of old?
The guide for the route I’d trod
was but a mirage.
Though I continued to grow old, I sought it out,
even if all that resulted was a broken traveler’s gravestone.
“I’ll be waiting just up ahead.” That voice, that blurry face
cling to me. How far have I walked?
The light casts shadows, as if sewing them together.
Dragging my captive along, I conduct the requiem.
I feel the pain of the smouldering coals of atonement
because the very firewood I nurtured burned me up as kindling.
I’ll unload the baggage I’ve shouldered and end this.
I’ll rest for just a little bit under the shade of a tree.
I’ll forget about it and move on.
Even if it’s only in my dreams, I’m saved.
Like watching the continuation of a dream,
a face surfaces in the morning mist.
Even that outline, though I can’t quite remember it,
was kind enough to grant me a smile.
I reached out my hand to the illusions
of olden days, crying “don’t leave me behind!”
I’ve arrived at the grounds of obsession.
It is the mirage.
Though I continued to grow old, I sought it out,
enclosing within it a broken traveler...
2020.10.21.
Burruyacú
On a dapple-grey horse with a good hoofprint
while wearing a red and blue poncho
I came to your hills, Burruyacú
to see a gaucha woman's eyes.
While the moon, tender lamp
gave its light above the fields
I went singing my little vidalas
on your sands, Burruyacú.
The times are leaving
like leaves in autumn leave, leave
but I carry you in my soul always
my beautiful home, my Tucumán.
To my little gaucha woman I gave my red and blue poncho as a souvenir
and one morning I left my home
and I bid you farewell, Burruyacú.
Maybe one day I will look for your shadow
and rest there under a cross
while the moon passes by while kissing
your chanarales, Burruyacú.
They are leaving...
2020.10.19.
Segítek utálni engem
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy kiesek az ablakon.
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy lezuhanok a repülőmmel.
Bébi, túl fiatal vagyok, hogy meghaljak,
De segítek túllépni rajtam.
Sok szívet törtem össze életemben,
A tiéddel volt a legnehezebb szembenézni,
Bár soha nem voltam szent
Még mindig szeretlek minden nap,
Csak nem amolyan szerető módon.
Tudom,ha valaki lebuktatott volna,
Most könnyebb lenne neked.
Sírhatnál és bánthatnál,
Aztán dolgoznál, hogy túljuss rajtam,
És megfordítanád az életed.
Mert,
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy kiesek az ablakon.
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy lezuhanok a repülőmmel.
Bébi, túl fiatal vagyok, hogy meghaljak,
De segítek túllépni rajtam.
Segítek utálni engem
Segítek utálni engem
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy kiesek az ablakon.
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy lezuhanok a repülőmmel.
Bébi, túl fiatal vagyok, hogy meghaljak,
De segítek túllépni rajtam.
Segítek utálni engem
Segítek utálni engem
Minden este gyors kaját eszek,
Tehát rossz rámnézni,
Igen
Megváltoztattam a profilképemet is,
Csúnyát választottam neked,
Hogy segítsek elbúcsúzni.
Hogy segítsek elengedni,
Viselem a pólót, amit utálsz,
Hadd nőjön a hajam,
Nem a jófajta módon.
Otthon fogok maradni,
Hogy biztosan ne láss mosolyogni soha többé.
Mert,
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy kiesek az ablakon.
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy lezuhanok a repülőmmel.
Bébi, túl fiatal vagyok, hogy meghaljak,
De segítek túllépni rajtam.
Segítek utálni engem
Segítek utálni engem
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy kiesek az ablakon.
Tudom, hogy szeretnéd látni, ahogy lezuhanok a repülőmmel.
Bébi, túl fiatal vagyok, hogy meghaljak,
De segítek túllépni rajtam.
Segítek utálni engem
Segítek utálni engem
Ó igen,
Segítek utálni engem,
De nem engedhetem, hogy össze törd a csontjaimat,
Mert, bébi túl fiatal vagyok a halálhoz,
De segítek neked túljutni rajtam.
Segítek utálni engem
Segítek utálni engem
2020.10.10.
Snowman
One day spring will come
And take me home
And blue skies will open above my head
Spring will cry and hold me with her warmth
And I will rest my tearful face on her shoulder
Where have you been for so many years,
So many sleepy winters?
I'm so tired of keeping a secret that I'm loved
But the night is blackened by pain
I'm looking through the icy window
There's a transparent tape of reflection
And nothing more
Spring will come after me
With ringing sun into emptiness
She never lies
She knows that I'm waiting
2020.09.29.
About sadness
As if it's been a while,
I haven't missed you a lot,
(so) I thought I would
forget the feeling of you
(those) times are unknown
I wasn't able to realize
there is another (piece of) you
concealed inside of me
filling me inside
how can can it live on
but please understand
I am already accustomed to other sadness,
so I may forget you
It's a shame, but I know it's not
it is (my) wish whenever (I) see a different you
scattered like it is forgotten,
your sorrow of longing
concealed inside of me
filling me inside
(I am not sure if it) can't do that*
please understand me (being) like this
I am already accustomed to other sadness,
so I may forget you
It's a shame but I know it's not
it is (my) wish whenever (I) see a different you
please understand
I am already accustomed to another time,
so I may forget you
It's a shame, but I know it's not
it is (my) wish whenever (I) see a different you
2020.09.16.
Tulips
Versions: #1
Tonight will be the last time we see each other.
We will part, singing Zemfira’stunes.
Illuminated by the shining headlights.
Your plump tulips
I will place into the waste bin,
And you are strange, if you are going to offer me tea,
Though I wouldn’t mind
A kiss, but just a brief one.
Dripping sheet music,
Cell phone is dead,
Empty stomach,
But I wouldn’t mind
A kiss, but just a brief one.
Dripping sheet music,
Cell phone is dead,
Empty stomach,
But I wouldn’t mind...
Tonight I say goodby to my evening, farewell my
Peter!
Hello, till next time!
It’s so nice, and the salty wind
Smells so sweet
Hot coffee for two, milk will get cold
On the concrete porch.
Kindle the fireplace and call me
Just with one word.
Hold me tight, tighter than wine,
Tell me all the stories that happen to you.
Discover the freshest aroma of the milky oolong,
And I wouldn’t mind at all
A kiss, but just a brief one.
Dripping sheet music,
Cell phone is dead,
Empty stomach,
But I wouldn’t mind
A kiss, but just a brief one.
Dripping sheet music,
Cell phone is dead,
Empty stomach,
But I wouldn’t mind...
2020.09.12.
The dolphin girl - To delfinokoritso
There in the open waters of Hydra and Psara
there appears in front of me a dolphin girl
Hey you, I'm telling her, where is your petticoat
Naked as you are, you are set to find your your boyfriend?
Go on my baby,
Hop on and we're setting off
We've been around the heavens five times already
I don't have a boyfriend she responds to me
I went out on a ride to check what's going on
She dives in the waves and dissapears
Then she swims back up and holds on to the boat
My God, forgive me,
I bend over to see
And the little rascal gives me a kiss
Her breasts smell like a lemon tree
and every shade of blue is sparkling in her eyes.
2020.08.25.
Storm Prince
The sharp light
Dancing in the air
Inviting the storm
The prince
The death agony
I love to hear it
Your soul
I will cut it up
Varia's number one
Skilled in battle sense
Prince the Ripper
It's not a gallantry
Look at the sinking royalty sacred blood
The revival of the deep crimson excitement
The cruelty of my arts
Everything in this world will be cut up
The cold light
Will corner you down
The raging waves' tricks
The genius
Only losing
I won't allow it
The prince's instinct
The winner is me
Mafia's heart
Will be dyed by fear
Prince the Ripper
It's about me
I can't stop the rising excitement
The innocent nakedness
The cruel nature
Everything in this world will be cut up
'Ushishishi ushishishi ushishishi'
Look at the sinking royalty sacred blood
The revival of the deep crimson excitement
The merciless longing
I can't stop the rising excitement
The innocent nakedness
The cruel nature
Everything in this world will be cut up
2020.08.23.
A white cone hat
I will gift you a white cone hat,
Pin a gold star to it,
Find yourself some dark night and set a lighthouse in it,
But don’t you forget about a white cone hat and a star.
I will gift you a white cone hat,
Pin a silver cross to it.
Find yourself a hill,
So you could see what lies below and what happens around.
I will gift you a white cone hat,
Pin a bronze sickle to it.
Sail down a river and look at that sickle in the reflection of the water, and in the reflection of the skies.
I will gift you a white cone hat,
Pin an aspen stake to it,
Find a terrible treasure, clad it in a strong chest
so you could find someone you have to find, and to trap him with a cone hat.
2020.08.23.
My Fault
You already knew how to destroy it all, you knew how to hurt me
You could already see that you're all that you've thought of yourself
And I have always been here
I've always been waiting here
Healing your old scars, trying to make it right
And how's it my fault
That you don't know what you want
And don't want to make up your mind about me?
How's it my fault
That you don't see what you are
And you have me
to make you happy?
How's it my fault? Oooh, but how's it my fault?
How's it my fault? Oooh, and how's it my fault?
I'll remind you that we were flying
We were flying high
We'd stopped hearing the noise of what people think
Show me the future, tell me something to make me believe in this
Right now you can only see the sky reflected in the mirror
And you don't even realize, you don't even realize
And how's it my fault that you don't know what you want
And don't want to make up your mind about me?
How's it my fault that you don't see what you are
And you have me to make you happy?
How's it my fault? Oooh
But how's it my fault?
How's it my fault? Oooh
How's it my fault?
You, you were my twinkling star
Stay here with your inferno
You, you were my twinkling star
Stay here with your inferno
And how's it my fault?
How's it my fault?
How do you expect me to stay if you don't feel what I feel for you?
Now I understand it, although it seemed perfect
We don't come from the same root
How's it my fault?
If now you want fire oh
I'll leave you with your inferno
I'll leave you with your inferno
And how's it my fault?
But how's it my fault?
And how's it my fault? oh
My fault, mine
If what you want is fire
You only want fire
Just go to your inferno
You only want fire
And it's my fault
My fault, mine
2020.08.22.
Sorry, But I Only Think of You
Sorry, but I only think of you
Ever since I met you
I don't know
What you did here
I only know
About wanting to stay
You know that you only have to call me
For me to go
I've already tried to forget you
But I failed
I met nice people
But there's no one like you that gives me moral
In the end, I always want you
I know that the love is a bit absent
So many people wanting to love
But no one daring to actually do it
But with you it was different
And I know that you also feel
And so, I decided to say it to you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Ever since I met you
I don't know
What you did here
I only know
About wanting to stay
You know that you only have to call me
For me to go
I've already tried to forget you
But I failed
I met nice people
But there's no one like you that gives me moral
In the end, I always want you
I know that the love is a bit absent
So many people wanting to love
But no one daring to actually do it
But with you it was different
And I know that you also feel
And so, I decided to say it to you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I
Sorry, but I (only think of you)
Sorry, but I
Sorry, but I (only think of you)
Sorry, but I
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I
Sorry, but I (only think of you)
Sorry, but I
Sorry, but I (only think of you)
Sorry, but I
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
Sorry, but I only think of you
2020.08.14.
Children of God (End Title)
I do not know who is in here,
And who is listening.
Is there someone who can hear
A gypsy's prayer?
I am an outcast, an oppressed girl,
And I have no rights.
But I keep asking myself,
Why must it be this way?
God, please help the outcasts,
Show Your mercy over those poor folks.
Hear my brothers who turn to You,
For they have faith
Only in You.
I ask nothing for myself,
But for all of my miserable people.
Help my brothers who suffer silently,
Aren't we all
Children of God?
I do not know if there is any use,
And if it is intentional,
But how come, only on our part,
Damnations befall
And never blessings?
God, please help the outcasts,
They, too, wish for meaning in life.
Why must all the strikes of fate
Only fall upon
The unfortunate?...
The ill, the homeless,
The disabled, the oppressed,
Aren't we all
Children of God?...
2020.07.20.
Help O Creator
Versions: #1
[Esmeralda:]
I don't know, if you hear at all
It's a quiet prayer
I don't where the prayer goes
Of the Gypsies
I am an outcast and poor
And alone I spent the night
Still looking at you and thinking
Perhaps you are alone as well
Help, o Creator, the hungry of the land
Turning to you, if they get no grace
Help, o Creator, this is my prayer
Help, o Creator, when no else does
[Choir:]
If I get riches, if I get fame
If I get glory and also honour
If love I could just get
I ask, angels of the Creator to bless me
[Esmeralda:]
I ask for nothing, I have enough
Still so many don't share my luck
Help my people, when they are always oppressed
I thought everyone were children of this land
Help, o Creator, the children of this land
2020.07.18.
The White Hair
I saw the white hair in the mirror,
I made a loud sigh from the bottom of my heart,
As soon as I started to whisper complaint,
Mind poked me not to embarrass,
It's the love that has to intervene,
So that man can feel young,
So that man can feel young,
Like a dove, I had left to fly in the sky,
I felt I did not feel like flying,
Mind poked me not to embarrass,
It's the love that has to intervene,
So that man can feel young,
So that man can feel young,
I left to compromise with happiness,
To caress the flowers of the vase,
I got sad by the impatient heart,
Longing for sympathy and comfort,
As soon as I started to whisper complaint,
Mind poked me not to embarrass,
It's the love that has to intervene,
So that man can feel young,
So that man can feel young,
I saw the white hair in the mirror,
I made a loud sigh from the bottom of my heart,
As soon as I started to whisper complaint,
Mind poked me not to embarrass
It's the love that has to intervene,
So that man can feel young,
So that man can feel young,
So that man can feel young,
So that man can feel young.
2020.07.08.
Helping Twilight Win The Crown
[Pinkie Pie, Rainbow Dash, Applejack, Fluttershy, Rarity:]
Hey, hey, everybody hear
We've got something to say
We are different
And can prove that
But when you look at it closer
You will notice
That the other is just like you
Yeah
Hey, hey, everybody hear
When I sing this
That friendship will always
Bring us forward
We thought that the day could
Never meet the night
Until Twilight Sparkle
Brought us an option
So do that, do this
I'll be glad to show how
If we work together
We can get Twilight the crown
So do that, do this
You can't do it wrong
If we work together
Twilight Sparkle isn't left helpless
[Pinkie Pie:]
Hey, hey, hear me
Now we're talking for real
Up, down
You can spin every way you want
[Rarity:]
All the virtues of these girls
[Applejack:]
Of every single one of us
[Fluttershy:]
Twilight showed us it
[Rainbow Dash:]
All that I'm able to do
[Pinkie Pie, Rainbow Dash, Applejack, Fluttershy, Rarity:]
So do that, do this
I'll be glad to show how
If we work together
We can get Twilight the crown
So do that, do this
You can't do it wrong
If we work together
Twilight Sparkle isn't left helpless
[Twilight Sparkle:]
Now whether I do this or that
I'll always be what I am
Do it yourself as well
May your personality bloom
And if you follow me
These obstacles won't matter to neither of us
When together
We raise this school to glory
[All students:]
So now jump like this (Hey!)
Kick, with a spin
Let's make a change now
The road takes forwards
So now jump like this (Hey!)
Kick, with a spin
Canterlot is the school
Of Wondercolts
So now jump like this (Hey!)
Kick, with a spin
Canterlot is the school
Of Wondercolts
So now jump like this (Hey!)
Kick, with a spin
Let's make a change now
The road takes forwards
2020.06.24.
Tease Me
I know this melody.
Have you ever heard of it in your dream?
You'll remember my voice.
Can you hear me well in the long dream?
Do you feel sad when the night comes?
I feel like crying for nothing.
I hear it every day.
Only sad songs can comfort me.
I can hear the sound of the morning that is coming.
tease me
I want to hug you by your side.
Like a doll I've never blinked at.
I want to know.
Um, well, just don't know.
Do you feel sad when the night comes?
I feel like crying for nothing.
I hear it every day.
Only sad songs can comfort me.
I can hear the sound of the morning that is coming.
tease me
2020.06.24.
I peeled an orange
I peeled an orange -
And i found inside
like in a nest
a boy sleeping.
The boy said:
'you made a hole here,
repair the slice
the cold is blowing on me.'
I said:
'sorry, bye'
and the slices
i put back in their place.
and until today -
if he did not catch a cold
inside the orange
the boy sleeps.
2020.06.22.
Megígérted, hogy így elég lennék
Oly csodás éj volt
Mikor találkoztunk Kivinokkában*
A szerelem villódzott a hullámokon
valami vezetett minekt
Oly régóta pontozom e partokat
Mégis mindig egyedül maradtam
Ezért olvadt meg a szívem
Mikor azt mondtad, hogy így elég lennék
Refrén:
wooo-oooo-o-oooo-ooo
Megígérted, hogy így elég lennék
wooo-oooo-o-oooo-ooo
Megígérted, hogy így elég lennék
És én játszok a gitáron
Rosszul játszom az akkordokat
De ez egyáltalán nem száá-ááá-ááámít
Ha én így elég vagyok neked
És én játszok a gitáron
Neked ezt jáá-ááá-ááátszom
Felidézem azt a csodás éjszakát
Végignézem innen a messzi hegyeket
Aranyszínben ragyognak
Felmászom rájuk
Könnyen fog menni
Ha helyesen értelmezed az utat
Már régóta eme utakat járom
Még mindig egyedül vagyok
Ezért olvadt meg a szívem
Mikor azt mondtad, hogy így elég lennék
Refrén
2020.06.21.
Learned
Versions: #1
You learned to see what others need,
To be familiar their needs and all their moods,
To embrace what they believe,
You learned to whisper while others hiss
You are one of the smart ones,
That don't say much, but marvel (at something) a lot
If someone is sad, you start to comfort them
You were liked, you began to trust them
You learned to give, in order to get something,
Because everyone loves the givers so much
You learned that as a woman you have to look nice,
Going out in clothes and never rebelling,
Because who is nice, is usually treated nice,
But the nice ones quickly turn to shit
You are liked, get the man, and have a kid,
But your head stays empty and your heart stays blind
You blame yourself for not being happy,
And still believe society isn't oppressing you, no?
You search for warmth, you want to bind their love,
But through these binds you'll never find true love
You give and give, and are proud of it,
But this pride is like rotting wood
In a house, which promises you smiles,
That promises to protect you as it collapses on top of you.
You met a boy, it almost worked out,
But Heidi Klum unfortunately pumped too much shit in your heart,
Because you are ashamed of what you are,
But that which you are is what you're missing,
Because you are the most important person you will meet,
The only person who will save you
So quit messing up your body
You want to please people who treat you shit
And you still are thankful someone sees you?
This is what a person needs who is constantly fleeing from herself
They feed you a picture of the world,
Until you believe it's reality,
Because you too cowardly to feel for yourself,
To think for yourself and to feel for yourself
You seek out confirmation and pay any price
I see children on posters that are as cold as ice
We are a miracle, though handled like a product
And we are disappointed, because everyone only looks at our packaging
We're kidding ourselves for the applause
We sold our laughter to the devil
And you tell your body it's still not perfect
It can give birth, have a little respect
For yourself, your soul is hungry
You live in a breathing miracle
And no one will ever give you what you need
Who you are, no one can ever take
And what you long for, no one will ever be shown you
And what you believe, no one will prove to you
Because what we are, no one has yet to understand
And what you feel, is not expressed in thoughts
And who you are, you will never discover,
If you only do what others wish.
2020.06.21.
Tehetetlen
ELIZA
Ó, igen, igen, igen
Igeeeen! Hé!
Ó, igen, igen, igen
Igeeeen! Miattad vagyok
ELIZA & NŐK
Tehetetlen!
A szemedbe nézek és az ég a határ, tehetetlen vagyok!
Kiütöttél és beléjük fulladok
ELIZA
Soha nem voltam a reflektorfénybevaló
Egy forró éjszakán néhány forradalmárral dorbézoltunk
Nevettem a nővéremet ahogy végigperdült a termen
Aztán te beléptél és a szívem azt mondta: 'bumm!'
Próbálom elkapni a pillantásod a bálterem széléről
Mindenki táncol és a zenekar teljes hangerővel fújja
ELIZA & NŐK
A ritmusra riszálunk borozás és vacsora közben
ELIZA
Megfogtam a nővérem és
Azt suttogtam, 'te, az ott
Az enyém'
A nővérem átszelte a termet érted
És én elkezdtem izgulni, gondolkoztam, 'vajon mit fog tenni?'
Ő karon fogott téged, gondoltam, 'végem'
Aztán te rám néztél és hirtelen
Tehetetlen vagyok!
Ó, nézd azokat a szemeket
NŐK
A szemedbe nézek
És az ég a határ
ELIZA
Tehetetlen vagyok, tudom
NŐK
Kiütöttél
És beléjük fulladok
ELIZA
Annyira vonzódom hozzád
Annyira vonzódom hozzád
Tudom, kiütöttél
És én beléjük fulladok
HAMILTON
Hová visz engem?
ANGELICA
Megváltoztatom az életét.
HAMILTON
Akkor mindenképpem mutassa az utat.
ELIZA
Elizabeth Schuyler. Örvendek a szerencsének.
HAMILTON
Schuyler?
ANGELICA
A húgom.
ELIZA
Hálával tartozom a szolgálatáért.
HAMILTON
Hogyha találkozásunkhoz egy háborúnak kellett vezetnie, akkor már megérte.
ANGELICA
Magatokra hagylak benneteket.
ELIZA & NŐK
Egy héttel később
ELIZA
Éjaszakánként levelet írok
Mostmár minden leveleddel jobbá válik az életem
A nővéremen nevetek mert háremet akar formálni
ANGELICA
Csak azt mondom, ha tényleg szeretnél, megosztoznál
ELIZA
Há!
Két héttel később
A nappaliban stresszelek
Apám pókerarcú
Míg az áldását kéred
Én belül haldoklom míg
Ti boroztok
És vacsoráztok
És próbálok nem sírni
Mert semmit nem tehet az eszed
Apám átszeli a szobát
Érted
Egy pillanatra pánikolok, azt gondolva
'Végünk'
De aztán megrázza a kezed és azt mondja,
'Légy hű'
És te visszafordulsz hozzám, mosolyogva és én
Tehetetlen vagyok!
NŐK
Tehetetlen!
A szemedbe nézek
És az ég a határ
Én
Tehetetlen vagyok!
Kiütöttél
És beléjük fulladok
Én
Tehetetlen vagyok!
ELIZA
Az a fiú az enyém
Az a fiú az enyém!
NŐK
A szemedbe nézek
És az ég a határ
Én
Tehetetlen vagyok!
Kiütöttél
És beléjük fulladok
Én
Tehetetlen vagyok!
HAMILTON
Eliza, egy dollár sincs a nevemen
Vagy egy holdnyi föld, egy irányítható csapat, egy morzsányi hírnév
Csak önbecslésem maradt, fájdalomtűrés
Néhány főiskolai kredit és a kimagasló agyam
Őrület, a családod valami újat hoz ki belőlem
Peggy megbízik bennem, Angelica akart belőlem egy darabot
Ne stresszelj, szerelmem feléd megkérdőjelezhetetlen
Majd szerzünk egy kis helyet Harlemben és onnan kitaláljuk
Család nélkül élek gyerekkorom óta
Apám elhagyott, anyám elhunyt, fékezhetetlenül nőttem fel
De soha nem felejtem anyám arcát, az igaz volt
Míg csak élek, Eliza, az Istenre esküszöm,
Soha nem leszel...
NŐK
Tehetetlen!
ELIZA
Igen, igen, igen, igen!
HAMILTON
Eliza...
ELIZA
Igen, igen, igen, igen!
HAMILTON
Még sose voltam ilyen-
NŐK
Tehetetlen!
ELIZA
Hé, igen, igen!
NŐK
Kiütöttél
És beléjük fulladok
HAMILTON
Mostantól az életem rendben lesz mert Eliza benne van
ELIZA
A szemedbe nézek és az ég a határ
Engem
NŐK
Kiütöttél
És beléjük fulladok
New Yorkban új ember lehetsz...
New Yorkban új ember lehetsz...
New Yorkban új ember lehetsz...
ELIZA
Tehetetlen.
2020.06.09.
I've Found A Parking Lot
Sometimes life treats me cruel for no reason
The day starting with a fight makes me wish to return to the last day
After it, flying bowls, oh if only they knew
If only there weren't any sidewalks that splash water
Without drinking coffee I can't feel awake
The lid isn't closed well, I've spilled it a bit on myself
This pastry is with olive, I had wanted the one with cheese
Not only I'm out of battery, also I've destroyed the cable
When I say, 'That's enough already!'
When I rebel against the way life is going on
When everything goes bad, when I run out of hope
I have only one consolation
I've found a parking lot!
I've found it!
I've found it!
I'm very happy!
I've found a parking lot!
I've found a parking lot!
(There was an empty place)
I've found it!
(Without anybody noticing)
I've found it!
(Quickly I've drived and for myself)
I've found a parking lot!
(It's done this time)
I've found it!
(The blinkers have been turned on)
I've found it!
(I've searched a lot and finally)
I've found a parking lot!
But it's not so easy everytime
Sometimes even I find a place, the big car doesn't fit in
I will stand guard at the window if it's necessary
If my car is in front of my house, then I would like it to stay there
Let me live a life at ease in this world
I think our cars are the same with the one of Gigi Datome
At any unrelated place, when I see some beautiful space
I desire to park my car if it is not even necessary
I don't think that paying for this is true
Even he wants to take my keys to park it
Come, come, come
Come brother, come
There is space, come
Turn left, come
Come along
Come totally
Come fully
It's ok, come
I've found a parking lot!
I've found it!
I've found it!
I'm very happy!
I've found a parking lot!
I've found a parking lot!
(There was an empty place)
I've found it!
(Without anybody noticing)
I've found it!
(Quickly I've drived and for myself)
I've found a parking lot!
(It's done this time)
I've found it!
(The blinkers have been turned on)
I've found it!
(I've searched a lot and finally)
I've found a parking lot!
(There was an empty place)
(Without anybody noticing)
(Quickly I've drived and for myself)
I've found a parking lot!
(It's done this time)
(The blinkers have been turned on)
(I've searched a lot and finally)
I've found a parking lot!
I've found a parking lot!
2020.06.08.
Doomed women (Delphine and Hippolyte)
By the pale glow of languishing lamp lights,
lying on deep cushions saturated with scent,
Hippolyte dreamed of the powerful caresses
that drew the curtain off her youthful innocence.
She sought with eyes made unquiet by the storm
the already distant sky of her candidness
as a traveller would turn his head back toward
the blue horizons he walked past in the morning
The unhurried tears held back by her eyelashes,
her broken air, stupor, and doleful delight,
her vanquished arms thrown back like useless weapons,
all served and adorned her fragile beauty.
Lying at her feet, serene and full of joy,
Delphine kept watching her with eyes full of flames,
like a strong beast would watch a prey after having
sunk his teeth inside it to tag it as a prey.
Strong beauty kneeling in front of a beauty frail,
magnificent, she would inhale voluptuously
the wine of her triumph as she leaned toward her,
as if to be granted a sweet acknowledgement.
She sought deep in the eyes of her pallid victim
the inaudible hymn that is sung by pleasure,
and this infinite and sublime gratitude
that eyelids let out like a prolonged sigh.
'Hippolyte, dear heart, what do you think of this?
Will you now understand that you should not offer
the sacred holocaust of your early roses
to vehement breaths that could wither them to death?
My kisses are as light as these transient mayflies
that brush in the evening the great transparent lakes,
while those of your lover will dig their deep furrows
like chariots would, or some harrowing ploughs
They will pass over you like a heavy carriage,
horses or bullocks and their unforgiving hooves
Hippolyte, my sister, would you look at me,
my heart and soul, better half and everything,
would you cast at me a glance full of sky and stars?
For one of these charming gazes of divine balm,
I would unveil the most obscure of the delights,
I would put you to sleep in a dream without end!'
That is when Hippolyte raised her juvenile head:
'Ungrateful I am not, nor am I repentant.
Delphine dear, I suffer and I am most alarmed,
as would be after a nocturnal frightful meal.
I feel heavy terrors gather to pounce on me,
and dark ghostly legions of scattered spirits
trying to lead me down heaving and winding paths
enclosed from all sides by bloody horizons.
Would it be that we did perpetrate a strange act?
Would you, if possible, explain my troubled fright:
I shudder for fear when you whisper 'my angel!',
and yet I feel my mouth be drawn closer to you.
Don't you look at me so, you my only concern!
You whom I'll always love, you my chosen sister,
even if you were a pitfall along my path,
and the beginning of a certain perdition!'
While shaking her fair mane dramatically, Delphine,
as if she were twitching on an iron tripod,
answered with fateful eyes in a despotic voice:
'Who dares, in front of love, evoke damnation?
Forever damned be he, the useless dreamer
who was the first to set, in his stupidity,
to solve a problem both unsolvable and sterile,
have honesty meddle in the matters of love!
He who strives to unite in a mystical pact
the shadow and the heat, the night and plain daylight,
will never warm up his paralytic body
to the blazing sun that goes by the name of love!
Go, if you so desire, fetch an uncouth suitor,
offer your virgin heart to his cruel kisses.
And then, filled with remorse and horror, and livid,
you'll come back to bring me your now defaced breasts...
No more than one master can be pleased here below!'
Then the child, pouring out an immense suffering,
burst out 'I feel a chasm widening in my being,
and this gaping chasm is no other than my heart!
A blazing volcano, unfathomable void!
Nothing will ever sate this foul moaning monster,
nothing will ever quench the thirst of the Fury
that draws blood from the burns inflicted by her torch
Let our drawn curtains set us apart from the world,
let our tiredness bring some rest to us at last!
I want to annihilate myself in your bosom,
find lying on your breast the fresh air of the tomb!
Come down now, come down now, ye pitiful victims,
come down the path that leads to everlasting hell!
Dive to the deep end of the pit, where all the crimes
get flayed by a wind that doesn't come from Heaven
and teem haphazardly in a growl of thunder.
Foolish shadows, run to the aim of your desires.
Never will you succeed in satiating your rage,
and your punishment will be born from your pleasures.
Never was your cave lit by a fresh beam of light.
Through every wall crack, feverish miasmas seep
and come ablaze, shining as fiery lanterns,
suffusing your bodies with their horrendous stench.
The harsh barrenness of your lustful enjoyment
exacerbates your thirst and parches your skin taut,
and the enraged wind blown by concupiscence
makes your flesh flap and slap like a decrepit flag.
Away from living folks, wandering, outcast,
run ye through the deserts, among wild packs of wolves.
Make your own destiny, ye poor unruly souls,
flee this infinity you bear inside yourselves!
2020.05.29.
Not That Day Today
My forcing heart is now
Love is not made to order
Touching without feeling
Does it ever suit you
You loved to break it above six
You thought you were wrong
You did your best
Let those who do not know are ashamed
A dear I will live again
Someday I will be good too
Baby i will forget you
2020.05.24.
I Am With You
I am here, with you
On the street, I'm with you
In dreams in my sleep, I'm with you
Even if the phone rings
I'll talk to you
My door is open, look, I'm with you
(Even with) someone else in my arms
You're with me
I miss you, I kissed lips
Your spoken words
You're my love song
My eyes closed, I listen to you, wait for you
They look at what's crazy
I make love to you
They can't see that I laugh inside
You're on my left, on my right
In my cigarette, in my room
You live with me, look!
2020.05.22.
Gunshot
Why she didn't love me, I don't know
Me, I gave her everything I have
But maybe what I have is not enough
Maybe she was looking for the sky in this room
And a sky, I don't have one
And then, why she ran away, who knows
Maybe because she was looking for a little bit of freedom
But me, I didn't hold her prisoner
I only chained her in the late afternoon
To spend some time with her, mmh
To hold her tight, mmh
Because love, love is a gunshot
Love, love is a punch on your back
And a slap for dinner
Love barely touches you
What was wrong, I don't know
Maybe I loved her too much, and too much is not allowed
But there is a hell in every Spring
That's why I went looking for her till night
To ask her why
My love, what's the matter? mmmh
Because love, love is a gunshot
Love, love is a punch on your back
And a slap for dinner
Love barely touches you
And then, why I did it, I don't know
Maybe I couldn't bear to her one more 'no'
come out of her golden mouth
First I killed her, then I kissed her.
Love, love is a gunshot
Love, love is a marching band playing our song
Is a knot around your neck
In the darkness of a prison.
2019.11.18.
Sneaky Fox
(Chorus)
Sneaky Fox, I knew it since that night
I am tired of our fightings
Oh, you sneaky fox
Sneaky fox
There are no more fightings, you are until here and not further
Get out of the way
There are two types of sneaky fox, it has known since that night
I am tired of our fightings
Oh, you sneaky fox
Sneaky fox
There are no more fightings, you are until here and won’t go further
Get out of the way
(Verse 1)
Ah, I'm in the red light
And in this love I received all the punishment
And my back hurts now
Yes good good i am good nina (prr)
You're not an idiot, not a psychopath, but I'm not your husband anymore
I am always shrieking and my tears do not disappear
There is no better guy who is with Pasha
Do not call me anonymously (hang up)
Do not ruin my sleep, hang up
I have no discussion with you, please let me know
I do not know, nobody knows who came in through us
Where are you from Myslym Shyri?
The only sound that can be heard on my balcony today is the whistling sound
I drink briefly and fall to the neck
(Chorus)
Sneaky Fox, I knew it since that night
I am tired of our fightings
Oh, you sneaky fox
Sneaky fox
There are no more fightings, you are until here and not further
Get out of the way
There are two types of sneaky fox, it has known since that night
I am tired of our fightings
Oh, you sneaky fox
Sneaky fox
There are no more fightings, you are until here and won’t go further
Get out of the way
[Verse 2]
Ehi, the green traffic light just caught me
My love says: 'Hec here just do not get stuck'
I said, 'It's alright to wait just a little bit longer.'
No matter how long it takes, the pain gets worse and worse
Piece by piece, piece by piece, piece by piece, piece by piece
Every day there was rock, rock, rock, rock, rock
And because of my feelings I fell to the ground, earth, earth, earth
The hot sun once started to cool down, cool down
I do not have to worry about this crap, getting tired
My heart is in million pieces, I am falling asleep
I do not think how many times I know
Am I a cheater with you?
I have not known a mother since then
Maybe you are (what are you, what are you?)
(Chorus)
Sneaky Fox, I knew it since that night
I am tired of our fightings
Oh, you sneaky fox
Sneaky fox
There are no more fightings, you are until here and not further
Get out of the way
There are two types of sneaky fox, it has known since that night
I am tired of our fightings
Oh, you sneaky fox
Sneaky fox
There are no more fightings, you are until here and won’t go further
Get out of the way
2019.04.23.
LPT
Cold, white walls
bare and sterile
A grey horizon stained with concrete
No life can be found here
No meaning
Nothing
The ghosts wander in these corridors
Their eyes are empty and tired
A faulty life situation
An empty life