2021.10.04.
All That I Always Dreamt Of
I always thought it would happenFrom childhood I believed in the adults
That one just needed to pay to see
Ugly, somewhat suspicious
Knock-kneed, now with a belly
Doubting whether I could grow
Even so, still
Time went by
And I kept postponing, mute
The great days I would know
Who knows tomorrow? Next year?
Cebolinha with his plans
Would teach me to be infallible
Strong, courageous, good at football
One of the good-looking guys at school
Even though I didn't insist
Just as well that I'm Brazilian
So stubborn, hopeful
Proud of being a five-time champion
But if I were American
I would grab a pistol
And I would lose my mind:
I would kill fifteen at the school
I would burst my head
And appear on the television
And eventually I grew, from insult to insult
I saw myself as an adult
Cultured, ready for what exactly? I don't even remember
I look and can't find
I think about whether I wasn't a fool
To believe in the tale
Of the vicar that I heard
There is no car waiting for me
There is no reserved table
Just an unfunny joke about a Portuguese man
There is no wine nor champagne nor wine glass
Just a little cachaça
And some meagre change at the end of each month
All I ever dreamt of
So much that I did
It's so good to be here
How much is still to come?
But nonsense, what great sorrow
I already know that life is hard
Now it's just a matter of getting accustomed to it
One just needs to have courage and tact
And street smarts
Learnt day by day, bar to bar
To those who complain if there's no cognac
If there is a crack in the TV
And my time only comes to win?
Why imitate Chico Buarque
Why desire to be a martyr
If giving yourself in is part of the moment
And eventually he gets a girlfriend
Pretty, educated
Serious, all that mummy always asks for
There is kissing and also f*cking
And a heavy conscience
For ever little desire that arises
For another woman, for liberty
For a real love
For being able to close one's eyes and smile
Thinking that therefore, from that point
Whatever your age
The best is yet to come
All I ever dreamt of
So much that I did
It's so good to be here
How much is still to come?
All I ever dreamt of
So much that I did
It's so good to be here
I know