2018.05.09.
D.A.D - I Am Me Because of You
You traveled far, I was left alone.
You told me pretty words that will make time be forgotten
You traveled to the cold while it's so hot in here
You promised to hold me tight so I won't feel that you're gone.
Its been a year, suddenly I realize I haven't told you goodbye
I was so busy in making your dream come true
I was so busy in not being there all day
Because in that home you built there, you haven't left me any room
And it's not because I didn't want to and it's not because of you
I understand it's hard to see a better version of yourself
I did everything for you, I just wanted a smile in return
Till I've already reached the top and your party was over
I never told you goodbye... and it's not because I didn't want to
You abandoned me there all alone in the street where I lived
And it's surely not what you wanted... and it's what you did
And all the anger in my heart is because you didn't even try.
You... I wanted you to be proud of me, I wanted you to see in me
All that... all that you didn't have in you, burst out of me
And it's true that because of you I knew what it's like to be poor
But I realize now that... dad... because of you, I am who I am.
You traveled far, I was left alone.
You told me pretty words that will make time be forgotten
You traveled to the cold while it's so hot in here
You promised to hold me tight so I won't feel that you're gone.
It's true, everyone calls me 'Sky' and sky means the heavens
Which is exactly where you went and got twice as far away from me
Murphy is no one's friend and definitely not mine
But I know that in the end, you didn't leave because of me
And to think that when you left, I was dancing on rooftops
Because I didn't know you left, I was filming successes
And I was swaying like a leaf and there goes another plane
While my dad was laying sick in his bed
I didn't believe you could go and I thought you would win
I didn't know time would catch you as it runs
I find myself screaming to the heavens up there
I don't care who hears it, God, Jesus or Allah
I turn to whoever sits in the heavens
The one that plays with us all and pulls at the strings
I don't ask for too much, I want nothing for my life
Just to be David's grandson, the father of Ilan Chaim.
You traveled far, I was left alone.
You told me pretty words that will make time be forgotten
You traveled to the cold while it's so hot in here
You promised to hold me tight so I won't feel that you're gone.
And it's been a year since and you still didn't visit
And when I fell down and got back up again, you were always missing
And the cold dwells in the house, the AC isn't helping
In an abandoned studio, there's a picture of us from the kindergarten
Do you remember the beginning? 'Cause I only remember the ending.
Covered in fake smiles, just wanting to smile in the end
Because of you I am cursed, a frustrated musician
Who'll die for his music and it won't be easy for him
Because of you I am hated, because of you I am scared
Because of you I'll end up alone
Because of you I am sad, because of you I can't sleep
Because of you, in order for me to open up, I light up and smoke
And I don't complain of all that I got because of you
Because I am loved for all those things and it's all because of you.
You built me up... d.a.d.
You built me up.
You traveled far, I was left alone.
You told me pretty words that will make time be forgotten
You traveled to the cold while it's so hot in here
You promised to hold me tight so I won't feel that you're gone.